Thursday, 6 October 2011
Its breast cancer awareness month so am reminding everyone to check their breasts. I had a little chat on radio BBC Leicester this week about BC. Which I am always so nervous doing but very happy doing it. Apparently I am a local celeb! I've also been in a couple of magazines and papers about my BC story and Forest Elf.
So it has been a while since I last updated my blog. This year has been one AMAZING year! It was the autumn equinox 2 weeks ago and pretty much 3 years ago when I was diagnosed with breast cancer, so I was feeling very reflective upon the last few years.
For the first time in a long long time I feel very happy, settled, content and proud. I often forget what I have been through and do not give myself enough credit.I feel like I go through life like its a dream. Everything that happens to me good and bad doesn't ever really seem to sink in.
A wake up and some days and have to remind myself that I am finally where I want to be in life. I have my own business, I live somewhere I love, I am so happy in my relationship with Joe, and not forgetting the biggest thing that I am alive and well and I beat breast cancer! Even when I had BC I don't think I realised how big a deal it really was.
Its crazy to think its been such a struggle to "find myself" but then isn't that what life is all about. I'm not sure you ever find yourself 100% but to be happy and content with who you are is whats most important.
So Forest Elf Boutique is going well and my launch party was a huge success! I was buzzing all weekend! I loved organising it and it made me feel like I had really achieved something big. I am doing some vintage fairs and hope to do festivals next year. I am also going to be putting on regular fashion show parties.I would love the business to grow and expand into my ultimate dream.
Back to the breast cancer side. I haven't heard from my plastic surgeon since I saw him in April which is probably a good thing as I really think I did need time to come to terms with things and accept that I am never going to have a perfect set of boobs. I have gone from wanting another mastectomy to having a breast lift and now I am thinking of just having the implant replaced. Why do I want to go through all that pain again and end up with loads of scars to try and make things look more better when they still wont be as perfect as I would like. Its madness! All I needed to be is just happy with within myself. I know Joe loves me whatever I look like and it was only me with the problem. I guess half of me was so angry that this disease had taken my breast that I wanted a perfect set back but that really is not possible and I am not going to put my body through anything more then I have too. My nipple does need reconstructing and my implant does need replacing so that's all I am going to have done.
I have not seen my surgeon so I am hoping this is OK. I don't see why not. It would be good to have it at the beginning of next year when nothing is going on and then have a holiday abroad to have a break!
You can visit my boutique on line at www.forestelf.co.uk or even better come and visit it in person at The Stable Yard, Main street, Cotesbach, LE17 4HX
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Hope you all enjoyed the summer and look forward to all the autumn and winter festivities!
Do not forget to check your boobs!!!
Invite to my next fashion show party