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Had a great last week but feeling glum now...

I pretty much made the most of the last week. I have had huge amounts of fun seeing various people and visiting my friends in Brighton. A lot of alcohol has been consumed and the late nights have taken it toll, but it has been worth it. I forgot how much I love Brighton because of the weird, wonderful and colourful characters you get down there. It makes me feel very comfortable being me and even fairly normal!

It was a painful and slow train journey back to Leicester yesterday as I was quite hung over. Back home and back to reality. I began to think about my next chemo on Wednesday. I have no idea what to expect and so a little anxious. I woke up this morning from having a full night of dreaming being in the hospital and having my chemo. Its made me feel a little down for the rest of the day. I know there is no point in worrying. I do know that I am not looking forward to being back on the steroids though. I have to start taking eight tomorrow and the next day but hopefully that will be it.

My mum is going with my on Wednesday and I will make sure she can sit with me too! At least I should not be feeling too nauseous afterwards but perhaps just a little achy and tired. My sisters are down at the weekend which will be a great distraction and I am even planing on staying on my mum and dad's narrow boat for the weekend for a change of scenery. I have always loved spending time on the boat, being on the canals is an entirely different world, very peaceful.

So I will try and make the most of tomorrow and hope the steroids do not effect me too much.

Comments

Anonymous said…
Wishing you lots of strength for Wednesday Emily, you're nearly there! The narrow boat sounds the biz. Hope you enjoy yourself on it! Lots of love Karen xx
19 January 2009 at 17:11
Anonymous said…
Good luck for Wed. You story sounds similar to me! If you are about to go on the "T" chemo - wasnt as bad as I thought, even got a little hair re-growth
Lisa
x
19 January 2009 at 17:16
Elizabeth said…
I will be back soon to look after you...sit on your bed and talk to you til 4 in the morning hehee!! You wont be able to get rid of me....are you sure you want me to move back home?!!! xxxx
19 January 2009 at 22:56
daBeat said…
Hey Emily!
I didn't know it, i send you a lot of strength too, i friend of mine passed the same and she's perfect actually.

Hope you're well. big kiss.
20 January 2009 at 11:37
Anonymous said…
Come on Em get your glad rags on and let's get outta this place!!!!!!
20 January 2009 at 12:07
Anonymous said…
I hope tomorrow goes ok Em, I'll be thinking of you, enjoy the narrow boat in the mean time and say hi to Liz and Amelia for me. Big Kisses Gem xxxxxx
20 January 2009 at 20:55
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