This is not far from how my reaction was yesterday when I tried on a wig. The first one I tried on I absolutely hated and wanted it off immediately. The lady told me to keep it on for a while but I couldn't, It looked ridiculous. She could sense I wasn't happy. It sat on top of my head and was so obviously not real. It reminded me off when I was young and used to dress up, we had this awful wig I'd put on. She brought me more to try but I wasn't being convinced in the slightest. I guess having short hair now and having got used to it now, was quite bizarre to then look at myself with long hair.
I tried on a real hair wig as there was no way I could wear a synthetic one. It felt a lot better but still so hard to tell as they were all cut in certain styles that I didn't like. I'm a fussy bugger and I knew that if I couldn't get what I wanted I wouldn't bother at all. I would probably have to buy a plain one and get it cut into the style I like. Its so hard to tell when you haven't got it the way you want straight away.
They are not cheap either and hoping the NHS will pay quite a bit towards it. I am sure its something that takes a little while to get used to but at the moment I feel like I'd rather go without and wear scarves. Then again Im sure I'll think differently when my hair does go.
I wanted a long and short one but I don't think that's feasible with the prices being quite high. I know that even when I do have my hair back I will still miss having long hair and it would be great to be able to have it again. I do love having short hair but head banging when your at a rock night doesn't quite have the same effect!
I still haven't found out when my next chemo date is so going to have to do some chasing. With Christmas coming up its something that needs sorting quite urgently.
I finally had a creative day today and started making some Christmas presents. I had a few battles with the sewing machine, with thread and pins everywhere I got there in the end! The more things I made the better they were so it will have to be a toss up as to who gets my first shoddy creation!
My older sis Katie, brother in law and two nieces are moving down tomorrow. It'll be great having them around. Evie and Alice always put a smile on your face!
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At first, when i came across your Blog, ive got to be honest i thought it was a strange thing to do.. To keep a diary of what your going through, at at first read, maybe i was reading because of that facination.. but after reading a couple (and especially this one) i think its brilliant, and a real insight into the actual practicalities of living with cancer (especially at an early age).. I really dont want this to sound patronising at all, ao i hope it doesnt, but after reading it i just wanted to say something.
Hope you are well, Gren. x
Just wanted to say well done for your brave decision to start this blog in the first place, I'm sure it has helped many others like you who until now have felt quite alone in their trials.
Keep well & have a great Christmas & New Year.
PS
The best solution to the wig problem would be to get one you feel ok in & let Jenny cut it the way you want it done. Who better to ask?!
Jen xx :)
I will be in Leices till around the 6th of Jan so try to get one before then.
Love you beautiful.
x
ps. I am just fine thanks x