Breast cancer awarness month

If you haven't noticed already its breast cancer awareness month, pink ribbons and products are everywhere but its more then just pink stuff! Its about being aware of breast cancer and remembering to check your boobs! So if you haven't already then do it now!! Do it after you have read this so you do not forget! Even you guys can check your pecks too. Around 300 men are diagnosed with BC every year so get checking.

I was involved in the Samsung breast cancer campaign again this year which was called 'Everybody is art' An artist recreated the face of Botticelli's Venus - featuring the faces of 1,096 men and women throughout Europe who are affected by breast cancer, or campaigning for breast cancer awareness. See if you can spot me!



The pink ribbon event was another glamorous night at the Royal Exchange in London with some celebs also there to support the campaign. A massive $1.5 million dollars was raised! It was also lovely to see Amanda again, one of the ambassadors who does a huge amount of work and raising money for Breast cancer causes!


My face was also up in Picadilly circus again.




So the summer has come to an end and my favourite season is here bringing lots of change! We are moving out of our summer shack on the coast into a little stone cottage in the lincolnshire countryside. Joe has got a fantastic blacksmiths job at a forge that he starts next week. It will be a huge change and a massive contrast from Brighton but we are both very excited. We visited Lincoln last weekend and loved the cathedral city and historic Tudor town. It will be a great fresh new start for Joe and I. We love the south hugely but have only struggled living here financially and a move up north will mean less of a struggle and a quieter life. We will finally be able to save for a camper van so we can go away at weekends.

Kinema in the woods not far from where we will be living. It plays old classic films as well as new.
Bathing beauties festival on the coast, a beach hut competition




I have heard a few negative things said about Lincolnshire and it annoys me when I tell people we are moving there and they say things like 'Oh god why do want to move there? Its a dump!' Luckily Ive heard some positive things about it too and it sounds like a place Joe and I will really enjoying living in. I like the idea of it being quieter and cheaper for a start. Joe and I could probably afford to buy a 3 bed house with a big garden in the country in 6 months. We would never be able to do that down south. I heard that Lincolnshire doesn't really follow the rest of the country, well that sounds bloody fantastic to me! Joe and I hate to conform too much and when we do we are very unhappy. I would never have chosen to live there but I think it will be a very positive move for us both. It won't be too long till I start squeezing out babies and I can't think of a better place to start bringing them up. We had dreams of moving to New Zealand for the lifestyle which can not happen yet anyway but I knew I always wanted to bring up my children in a similar way to how I was brought up in the 80's. A more innocent life then kids probably have now in the 21st century.




We wont be too far away from the coast!

And anyway it doesn't mean its forever. I'm a bit of a gypsy anyway and love change so am quite happy moving around. My family are obviously very happy that I will be moving closer and it will be great that a can just nip over now!

I enjoyed the summer down on the coast and made the most of living on the beach with lots of barbees and drinking cider and made some lovely new friends, including Kim who took me under her wing and has looked after me. I will miss her lots!



I may have enjoyed myself a bit too much though and it caught up with me this month. My candida returned with a vengeance, so my UTI's are back and im having to try and go back onto that very strict diet again which I'm finding very hard! I had some blood tests that revealed I was very anaemic and deficient in Vit B12 so I have been having B12 injections and have to continue these for a while.

I am going to try and look after myself a little better over the winter. I can not wait to live back out in the country again especially as Autumn has begun. I love to be able to watch the leaves on the tress change into the most beautiful autumn colours. So There will be plenty of country walks and feeling very cosy in our new little cottage. The cottage is in a lovely little village called Scothern 6 miles outside of Lincoln. So we are not completly cut off from some civilisation!

As for what I'm going to do, well I had deferred my costume design course as could not afford it and am beginning to think I will never end up doing it now because of the costs. I feel a little sad about this but I am so fed up of being skint and in debt. I feel I learnt a great deal on the one year I did in Leicester and could carry on teaching myself. I would love to work for myself anyway. I have an interview for a job in a Fabric shop in the Bailgate of Lincoln. If I got the job it would be perfect for me and in my spare time I would make things and try and sell them in the markets, and lincolnshire is full of market towns!

Lincoln Christmas market and the Bailgate





So with the move coming up and new beginnings I again have a lot to look forward too. I have a feeling living in Lincolnshire will be like our little piece of New Zealand, quiet, rural, and a little behind which I like!

Apart from all that I have recovered well from my recon and am fairly happy with the results considering its never going to look perfect. I do feel everything has hit me suddenly and I hear thats quite common. A lot of women who go through BC their lifes are turned upside down and don't have time to really let it all sink in so when it all settles down and you have less hospital visits and contact with your oncologist it hits you! I feel that your left to deal with it and get on with life with no help and it annoys me when your doctor or oncologist says 'Well your bound to be depressed so why don't you consider going on anti depressents.' I am not sure what the answer is to be honest, maybe talking about it helps but i'm not sure any women can be 100% get over the fact they lost a breast to such an awful disease. Being at peace with it is quite important though and staying positive!

Well I had my first mammogram since I was diagnosed a month ago and it came back clear! Great news. So for now keep checking those boobs!